9/28/02... 10:12 pm... holy the last 36 hours have been jam-packed... it seems like it's been like a week since the last time i wrote... let's see slept great the other night, i think andy's couch and me get along really well :-p... then went to work.. .finished out my last day by actually working for liek an hour, and then just talked... then cleaned out my desk... i really didnt have too much at all hehe... just made sure to take my headphoens, and i "acquired" a magic 8 ball from the storage closet haha... went out ot lunch with the marketing/sales team... mmm sushi... it was funny we all chose one roll adn shared evertyhgin but everything we orded no matter what it was, seemed to be just a california roll with just somethign on top of it, like salmon or tuna lol... but yeah... lunch ended early enough so i got a chance to go home b4 tutoring... which meant i got to shower :-p hehe... oh yes showering is a wonderful thing :) especially if u've been wearing the same chothes for awhile lol.. lessee tutoring was good too, the guy i help in physics is pretty cool, we were both really really tired, so we stopped like 15 min early and just talked about random stuff... he's got a good view of hte world and how things are and should be for just begin a junior in highschool... and the kid i had after had to leave early so i got out 20 min ahead of time... so got my parents some boba... although from now on i gotta get just non-boba drinks for dad, he's not too big a fan... mom's like me though hehe... wnet home and felt really just like sleeping... but ended up meeting up with the parents and doing some work... but i got convinced by bittu to come out to USC that night... so i got out there like at 11ish... man i kinda wish i had gone to a school in a major city, it's like the complete opposite of uci... there's people up and out everywhere... although i did have to park like half a mile away, and the local street inhabitants were pretty conspicuous... but it was cool having so much people and noise around... met up with some of his friends in hollywood and just talked about random stuff and listend to sublime... they truly are an incredible group... i never really realized how diverse they were on their songs too.. the bets thing i thought about the night was that at 4 in the morning, by this guys house, were still places open... we ended up going to a pizza place down the street, and while we didnt have to wait for a booth, the restaurant was pretty full... pizza mmm i asked for osmethign new for the first time, i got extra sauce on the cheese pizza, the just made sauce like a nother topping...mmmm (i like pizza sauce lol)... finally went to bed i htink around 5:30... woke up at 8:30 cuz ma said she wanted to go to the mall wlith us... so had to get my ass back home... it was relaly weird not sitting through any traffic on the 10... i cant imagine the poepel who brave that freeway daily... tha twoudl seriously suck... i mean one of my main reasons for quitting nexgenix is tha ti just dint want to deal with the mornign traffic that i'd have to sit thorugh if i wnated to keep workignthre... newayz went to robinson-may and got some nice new shirts & pants THanks Ma :)... i think i'm gonna start donating some of my old clothes... although i like em all.. just some of em, like i dont think i have a pair of khaki's without a weird stain on em... so maybe i'll slowly replace them... hehe... finally got home i think around 12 and then ate and slept til rehearsal time... i think 'im doing pretty well.. .i mean i'm the only one who doesnt need prompting, although i do have the least lines :-p... but went ok i suppose... and now finally home for good... well at least til 10:30 tomorrow when i have to go to rehearsal AGAIN... man i wish i got paid for this... there's been mad hours that i've had to put into this thus far... i just hope it turns out well in a couple weeks. dang.. just dozed off here at the computer again... only 10:30 and i can barely keep my eyes open... althoug if i go tot bed now.. i'd get 12 horus of sleep almost... i haevent dont that in forever... but i feel weird goign to sleep b4 midnight hehe... todays weather was great though... such a welcome change from the hot sun... even rained... hehe it was nie not having to use the air conditioner... plus i bet it's helpign out the firefighters a lot right now as well... hmmm... last night though as very fun... i couldnt believe how much we just talked about music... i must have just kept asking this guy khuram about every possible type of genre of music & a whole buncha bands... he had really good ideas on them... and i like his view about respecting a band even though u may not like their style of music... we also had long debates on vanilla ice and mc hammer... the vanilla ice one was cool to listen to, cuz one guy held the view that he opened the door for white rappers, while another claimed he was a huge obstacle for white rappers... ihtink i'm just indifferent on the subject though... but man i do like music... i think that sometiems if i had to choose, i'd rather be blind than deaf...

9/27/02... 3:33 am... hehe a bit late but for some reason sleep aint a-coming... currently borrowing the computer of one mr. andy schuster, who i have to honestly thank for full usage of his couch each time i've spent the night in AV... i'm also trying to type as softly as i can, but i think keyboards are made to make noise... hopefully it wont be to loud, due to the fact he does sleep with music goin, although i did change the playlist to the blue album (weezer)... damn i think this is one of the sole albums where i honestly like every single minute of the album... it truly is in my top 5 albums of all time... so had a very hmm i guess nostalgic night, had dinner with will, brian & katie... i think elephant bar restaurant is turning out to be a much used venue amongst my friends, although i dont mind, it's not too pricey :) and i like their food, plus they got a half & half drink, half lemonade and half ice tea... each time they bring it out it's in a different mixture hehe. so it's like a different drink everytime :)... yes so after hangoing and talking about quake/weather/speeding & randomness brian & i decided to clean out my trunk, meaning i happened to have a couple of beers in my trunk so we headed over to AV to visit mario's room to drink them... he's got a good relaxing setup, perfect for sitting around and talking :)... although one really really strange thinge... he's got a chair in the bathroom facing the toilet... no idea what it could be used for though hehe... i dont really think there's much of an audience inthat room lol... then gave mario & jen their rest and we moseyed around av... was surprisingly quiet around 1... although i supppose it is a school night and people have a weird notion about going to the first day of classes :-p... i think i really am gonna miss living here... did get to see stout & ryan's new setup in their room, very very nice... also, haha saw a video for Dead or Alive Extreme Beach Volleyball... if u happen to see this game you will see that their marketing strategy for sales on this game is a very very direct approach, and volleyball ain't part of it lol... if u want to destroy my sweater... pull this thread as i walk away... undone was the first weezer song i had ever heard in my entire life, and it was just around the time i had started listening to kroq... i remember thinking how cool that song was (and still is)... it's weird the songs that i heard that year are songs that i consider like some of my favorites, like cracker - low, radiohead - creep, machines of love and grace - butterfly wings, james - laid (i especially liked to sing along to that one, there's just somethign fun trying to do the high pitched falsetto part :-P)... woah... everyone on my entire buddylist is away or asleep or offline... who am i supposed to waste time with? :-p... it's probably a sign to go to bed myself, but tomorrow morning i dnot have to think at all... just gonna go into work, dressed in probaaby waht i'm wearing now (jiz skateboards tshirt - www.jizskateboards.com if u're looking to buy a skateboard) and jeans hehe... i figure it's appropriate attire for casual friday/my last day at nexgenix... get to turn in my key and clean out my desk... 2 years + coming to an end in less than 12 hours... bahhh i guess i am sleepy hehe just spent the last half hour or so dozing hehe... g'night all...

9/26/02... 1:18 am... stupid mbi, went down again, and now i've forgetten everything i wanted to write hehe... well the fire is still blazing... although houses in la verne are all safe now :)... well kidna i guess only teh vacation cabins got burnt... but the fire is still going strong... when i leave my room window open my room starts to smell like a bonfire... u know that kidna burning wood smell... that gets left in your sweatshirt after u get home and u smell your clothes the next day? well it smells like that hehe... oh man so if u ever exit weir canyon road off the 91 and want to turn on savi ranch road, DONT miss it.. i seriously ahd to drive an extra 5 miles total just to get back to it... it sucked... oh yeah a reason why i love the internet & cable modem... so my tutoring job is gonna make me miss watching tv during prime time, and i havent quite mastered the dishnetwork to vcr taping thing (and i forgot to set it) but i missed the first episode of hte season for smallville... but i went on good old irc, went to #smallville and lo and behold it was there :) hehe commercial free and only 3 after it aired here i got it hehe... and man it was good lol... hee hee... so little kids crack me up... at work i like talking to the 3rd graders the best... they are hilarious... makes me laugh daily :)... well i'm looking forward to tomorrow night... gonna spend it in irvine hee hee... this time as visiting alumni... lol although i dunno if i'm gonna go to the campus or not... we shall ahve to see... bah this is boring toinght, sorry about that... oh yeah a possiblity for winter... CANADA home of bacon and beer lol... robin has a master plan that might work very very well... also no wonder amtrak is bankrupt... why would u pay as much to ride a train as it costs to fly? lameity hee hee... ok good night... i promise to do better another night all... g'night...

9/23/02... 12:55 pm... it's getting hot in hrrre... :-p... jeebus drove by the bank thermometer today and it said 101... man i'd hate to have to be working outside... had somethign enw happen for the first time today... went out to the car adn saw it was semi-covered in ash... that fire really is close... hole sky is cloudy with smoke towards the north... and u can see darker smoke still billowing up... i remember reading a couple months ago about how firefigheter airplane pilots are slowly dyign out... they have this insane job of filling up their plane to way over capacity with water then flying insanely low through smoke, basically blind and dropping water... and repeat over and over... i can see about 3 of these planes right now... i couldnt imagine having to do that for a living... they should get paid a grip but i doubt it... maybe they just have to work on fire days... which i guess seems pretty often... well carpet is completely clean now :).. and dry already.. our guy that comes is amazing, he does the whole house in like 2 hours and like 3 hours later it's dry... same guy for 15 years... heheh he always likes to talk about how when we were younger my sis and i would put on our slippers with the slippery plastic bottoms and run and skate across the carpet... if still had those slippers i'd be doing that right now too hee hee... so a question to most of u... what do you do with old books? i'm running out of space to put em... but i dont wanna sell em or give em away or anything... plus i always am thinkgin oh i'll read that again one day hehe... i dunno... righ tnow i just have stuff stacked in a lot of random places... newayz i guess i'll be productive... but first i'm gonna go find dry spots to walk around on... it's got like this crunchy carpet feeling i like :-p

9/22/02... 9:58 pm... stupid bears... dont know how to win a football game :(... i think the lost cuz i was unable to watch the game today cuz of rehearsal... but rehearsal was good i guess... if u dont count me falling asleep a couple times, cuz they mostly rehearased scenes i wasnt in... hahah... bye the way i dunno if i've mentioned this or not, but hooray for andy and lisa, it's about time lol... so made a decision today to start looking into teachign credential masters something or another program type thingies... just as a back-up... i figure if this year's apps dont go well.. well i guess i'll just fastforward through my 30 year plan and skip to the end of it... but hopefully not... kinda starting to feel pressure again :(... but luckily i still got a month b4 i make or break myself on something... today was dad's bday... well kinda his bday and kinda not, he's got 2 hahah... so i never know which one to buy him stuff for, hahah but unfortunately didnt get to spend much time with him. but neither did ma today, so that was ok hehe.. all had a family dinner, i think that's one of his favorite thigns, when the 4 of us eat together... mom went to a house for a meeeting today, she said they ahd a tv in everyroom including the bathrooms... man i'd like to live there lol.. although i'd add in a computer into every room too haha... oh finished reading snow crash last night... holy cow was it crazy... it combined capitalism, computer science, religion, archaelogy, history, war, sex, whale hunting, motorcylces, samurai, mafia, and a whole buncha other stuff all into one... gracias much to ken for the suggestion and robin for the book hehe. so today is the start of welcome week, it kinda feels weird not having it this year though... no moving in, no meeting new people, no figuring out how the room is gonna look, no claimign of public space, i think it really is true waht some people say, about hwo college is one of the most fun times in one's life.... now i'm just old and graduated :(... sadness. okies... time to chore around... i apprantly have to get everythign off the ground, cuz we're getting the carpets clenaed tomorow... so my whole system of shoving everything under the bed all summer is coming back to haunt me...:-p

9/21/02... 10:58 pm... so i got a question for you all... if there's a creative entough person to make up certain events and make a movie about it, does that mean that tehre's an equal possiblity of a depraved person to actually do those events in real life?... i ask cuz how messed up would a person have to be to actually commit the murders that happened in seven.. .just cuaght the end of htat on tv... man it's one of hte few movies i actually consider scary... plus it's really damn good.... well my goal for the day happened... haha i had ZERO productivity... contributed nothing at all to society except for exchanging words which conveyed thoughts and ideas to others... well i figured out today i'm pretty much addicted to stories... spent a LARGE amount of hte afternoon just reading episode summaries of tv series that i didnt get to watch last year hehe.. im' all caught up now... hahaha... i just like being told a story... this one site i found for angel was freakign incredible... detailed summary of each segment between commercials... commentatry on it, cultural reference explanations, allusion explanations, dictionary definitions for little known words... it was insane... i feel ready for jeopardy hehe... so much useless knowledge learned haha... newayz i think i'm gonna continue sleeping... gnight all...

9/21/02... 1:34 pm... just watched son of hte pink panther, i really like roberto benigni on screen, he brings a smile to my face... also caught the end of Dutch, i like ed o'neill a lot in that movie... too bad he doesnt get more roles, i guess he's type cast as al bundy forever... last i saw him was in haha little giants with rick moranis, who i guess has disappeared from the face of the earth.. .i guess u can only do so many honey i ______ the kids movies... hehe... hopefully wont do anythign at all today.. that'd be perfect :)... but i probalby should be productive of sorts. newayz time to read... mmm books ;)

9/21/02... 12:34 am... ahhh bejeebus... so now according to someone i'm personally responsible for all those who read this... so if you're young, dont. or if u cant handle the follwing words: FUCK, SHIT, DAMMIT, BITCH, dont read this either... go watch the disney channel or soemthign instead. and if u wanna tell yoru parents go right ahead, then have them speak to me to clarify any questions or concerns they have. and again let me direct people to the statment i made on 9/2/02, it's just a freakign spur of the moment thing... and again when i do write stuff down there's a REASON for it... sadness, mike just told me something, wait, 3 things that are unfortunately beginning to be true nowadays: MoPHATcash: Ah, anks has reached the stage of life where you realize it 's ok to cut people off your "friend" list
MoPHATcash: that's a fun time
AnKur 615: yeah i'm beginning to realize that too
MoPHATcash: It's a weird feeling realizing that you just don't need some people in your life
MoPHATcash: or perhaps they have fullfilled their purpose

sad to say but i think that everyone is gonna get to thsi poitn in life, but i really woudl like to think that it's not the case.... ahh well i guess time will tell... in necase... all this was set off today by me getting a call, and not realizing who it was for like the first 2 minutes at all, it's really weird when that happens hahah... err newayz i guess i conceded a bit and changed something i wrote b4... i guess the thought gets through, w/o the literality now... ugh... hahah i was just scrolling through and i think there's only one bad thing i've written in that whole people section... guess i just didtn have a comp aroudn for the other stuff i suppose... newayz moving on... and hopefully i'll never have to write about this again... although like 2 days ago i was gonna have a completely different attitude towards thsi situation, but now that's all dun been messed up once again... u know honestly i think i'd liek everyoen to tell me straight out anything... i'm kinda tired of guessing whether or not i should care or try anymore... ahh well time will tell i suppose... but civility shall stay around... haha... and omg wtf fuck was that lil's roommate goddamn this night is just weirdness... ahh well enough of this... and i didnt even get to my whole point of writing today... have a very very weird story for you all... very strange... maybe tomorrow... but to end with a positive note, I DONT have rehearsal tomorrow HOORAY HOORAY! my first free saturday in awhile :) hehe... nwayz g'night all...

9/19/02... 1:33 pm... okies it's a bit later now and i'm not nearly as worn out haha... so last night will, brian, chris & i went out for brians/chris's bday... a BOOO to johan for not coming :-p... but newayz what to do on one's bday? well drinking is usually the standard fare so that's what we set out to do... first off had dinner right on the pier off of 21st st in newportbeach/balboa area... it was actually a pretty nice place, a bit pricey but whatevers, had some suchi and french fries, a good mix of east & west food haha :-p, started the drinking there, wtih some overpriced beers, but no matters, chris came and met up wtih us there and we gave him half a pitcher to catch up... so after dinner we chilled outside while those who needed to smoked and talked to the waitress too, was very cool for some reason to hear someone we didnt know's story, i got some respeci for chris, he can make converesatoin wth neone, so newayz, my goal for the night was to get brian way faded, but doing that a bar, well it kinda hurts the wallet so we walked over to 7-11 :-p... after getting some cans, and losing horribly at scratchers, for some reason the only person i know that gets lucky with those is my friend mike... but yeah we had gotten things to drink, but where to drink it? well... i came up with the idea of checking out where a friend of mine used to live, maybe that place was still empty and we coulda just sat on their patio... so we walk over there, and the house looks empty and stuff and we go up to the 2nd floor and there's a nice patio furniture set out... and i'm thinkgin hey this could work out fine, then one of us notices a light inside, like a vcr 12:00 flashing r something... and we're like crap someon elives here.. so we book it donw the staris and are leaving the property, and just so happens right as we're leaving some guy comes out of the downstairs, and is like, "u're walking on my roof?" and we're like, oh whoops we got the wrong house and we walked away qucikly.. newayz ended up just chilling and talkicng in an alley... then we decided to go to a bar that the waitress had mentioned, it was called the Blue Beat, i think, estabalishe din 1912, so it had cool brick buliidngs and stuff... went in there and i was dd so i didnt drink ne more, but i still had my goal, so i got them all 3 wise men, which just smells horrible to begin with ahah.. so they drank those and some long island ice teas whlie we chiilled and tlaked and watched foxsports and listned to this guy play on the guitar and his friend on the harmoniaca.. .he was pretty good, it was funny cuz even brian was digging the songs, and he mostly listens to hiphop only... oh yeah while at the bar, this guy with a polaroid was coming aroudn so we shelled out the 10 bux and got 2 pics taken of ourselves, i guess this guy runs some sorta charity thing, where the money he makes off of these he supposedly gives to students as scholarships... but he was the first Rupert i've ever met in my life :-p... newayz just talked about a lot of stuff after that, most of it, hmm i think wouldna been as freely talked about if there wasnt alcohol involved haha, it is a great tongue loosener... but yes ended up going home around 2 i think where the 3 of us, chris went home, just fell asleep after playign wtih the computer a bit haha... woke up in the mornign feeling fine, although at the aerly hour of 8, so just sat aroound and preepared todays lessons while watchign tv n stuff... had lunch at in n out to see if chris was feelign allright and he hooked us up with a bag of fries :)... but yes, so this month i've had 2 really good nights out goin out to drink.. i used to never do that, but i guess it can be fun, buti think it really depends on the poeple u go wiht... but it does get expensive hehe.... but the positives of the night after, no one threw up which is always a positive haha.... oh yeah a late night donut place was right next to blue beat, tha twas tight too :).... newayz i gotta get myself all dolled for my kids... catch u all later...

9/19/02... 2:03 am... hahah hilarity. broke into an occupied house (kinda). drank much. ARMPITSEX. hehe... oh man tonight's night of brian's bday was very very good. right now i'm sitting next to will on his computer, he's got two which helps much :). i can even im him if iwant hahah... although all he's said back is that he likes cake :)... right now the 4th member of our party is chillin at a jack in the box per order of newport beach police department... hahah brian's dresssin up with left over pimp an dho clothes dancing in front of the camera hahahahhaha wer'e busteind up haha... ahh well nuff of thsi... will tell stories later haha... g'night all.

9/17/02... 11;39 pm... so i went to rubio's today... i think i really dont wanna go again, jsut seems way to fancy smancy priced for mexicanesque food, plus i htink i like baja fresh better if iwant that type of food... but the company was good, staci told me all about panda's... if u wanna insult a guy tell him he's "as big as a panda's" hahahah... heard many stories, like mopping carpets... sideways mounting... nonwashing of clothes hehe... but man it'd be cool to have a pet panda... and a monkey... i really wanna helper monkey :)... MONKEY go get me a beer... or MONKEY go make me a samwich :)... work is still going well... hahah actually lost track of time tutoring one guy tonight, he finally grasped some concepts and was on a roll so we just kept going through more and more stuff... so had the weirdest dream thsi morning... and for some reason it's stuck in my head... i twas kinda like a lucid dremaing cuz it was towards the time i was waking up... but newayz i dreamt i was lookign at the first page of the business section of the LA times and i saw an arcicle on jurassic 5... well the article was about non-mainstream artists using commercials to get their music out to more people... example they used was j5's new single what's golden & the sprite commercial (which i like very much, i really dig those lowrider bikes :))... but yeah this was like a really good article, at least in my dream... but it was relaly weird cuz when i woke up i thought i was just remembering something i read right b4 going to bed, but i looked all online for anyting like it but no luck... i dunno first tiem i've ever dreamt about an article hahah... bleh... be back later perhaps... maybe to do an aside on commercialism/captialism/materialism (been on my mind lately) hehe..

9/15/02... 10:02 pm... so i guess it's been awhile... lot on my mind but dunno what i'll write down toinght... i guess i can start with something good... yesterday, well if i had the means to insert the same day, just different year, well it coulda easily been one of the greatest days of my life.. first why it was good and then how i dreamed it coulda been better... goodwise.. last night went out for my friend julie's birthday, she came down from sf, ended up at dinner 8 of us, including pretty much 5 of my closest friends from high school... we were only missing my "mom"... but i cant describe to you how good it feels to have them around all at once... i dunno it just kinda makes everything right and good... 2 other additions were respective boyfriends of which, one who is really really cool, and the other seems cool, but i dont know enough to have a strong opinion about, but my friend, she really does seem happy with him, well as far as last night looked lol... newayz dinner was good, just elephant bar... was a great way to balance out the day of rehearsing (gripes about that later maybe)... after dinner we didnt go clubbing (i was actually kinda glad) and we just sat at ren's and played board games and talked, making fun of the usual people and things... i dunno it was much better for me than actually going out and going to some big party or something...neways things ended at one... but i still had other things hehe, i planned out ahead of time to crash in av, and the plan allowed me to see 2 people who i think i'd consider in my top people i've met at uci... got to talk with both for awhile, one for a long while, got introduced to new people and shaolin soccer :)... dont htink i slept til 4:30 or something lol... but yeah it was just really really nice seeing my highschool friends and close uci friends all in one day... which brings me to how the day coulda been amazing, see each year my dad & his college alumni's in southern california have a picnic in the summer... i used to go all the time, but i think i havent gone in the past few years... it really really used to be a great day, mainly because i'd get to see and spend the day with my 2 closest bengali friends, like u have no idea how lucky i am to have this kind of connection with these guys, i mean it just so happens all our parents all got along, and us being aroudn the same age ensured we'd see each other a lot before, these picnic days were great... i mean i can remember the times where we fought against the odlder kids, went hiking up in these hills, explored fake rivers, won balloon tosses & egg tosses, plyaing soccer with the dads, rigged the "races" so we'd tie sometimes... like when i htink of a day out at a park these were like the quintessential thoughts and ideas that all fit just right... but unfortunatley none of us go anymore... and even if i coulda i had to go rehearse... but last night i fell asleep dreaming that i was younger, maybe like 7 or 8 years ago, and i had one of those days b4 the night of hs & uci friends..... now speakign of rehearsal, i guess it's going well, although today i had a feeling that i have usually only had with my parents, i guess it's kinda this really intense, but only for a moment, flash of pure anger... kinda really weirded me out, cuz i try not to let things get to me... just makes thigns harder u know, of ccourse somethings u just cant ignore, but i dunno what it was today, newayz it came abuot from me being right about something, but no one listening, i dunno maybe it was just really frustratign and i was feelign really tired from not sleeping too much the night b4, but i think it's serisouly been one of the first tiems i've felt with non-family... luckily i guess it passed quickly and i'm pretty sure tomorrow it wont even register, ahh thank you brain for the policy of burying stuff away... but yeah... i think though that ability to get mad is in all of us, just a throwback from the earlier times, when maybe u really did need that kind of strength from anger to get through some sort of ordeal... but it really is something i wish i didnt have, or maybe i just gotta retool how i deal with it... hmm gotta stop thiking about that... oh yeah, have i told you, I LOVE MY JOB :)... i just dont know how to tell how cool it is to get paid to do something that u look forward to doing and to do something that leaves me happy after the end of the day, it's like i'm an education gigolo ro soemthing hahah... but yeah i'm sooo liking this math teachign/tutoring... on a sadder work note though this is gonna be my last week at nexgenix... can u imagine over 2 years at a job, which has nothing to do with anythign i took in college lol... and except for the director of marketing i've been there longer than any of the peopel i directly work with haha... too bad they dont pay by seniority lol... but yeah i think just two more days there this week, and i gotta turn in the electronic key... i am gonna miss it htough kinda, although recnelty i've really not liked going into work other than the fact i get to talk with a couple people... but i am gonna also miss all the free printing/copying i did lol... oh man i was like the typical office supply abuser, i think i even just loaded up my backpack with a reem of 500 sheets of paper once haha... but yeah... so ends the title of "marketing intern"... i'm actually a little bit more bummed cuz it kinds severs another tie to irvine... oh yeah Football, hehe i'm back into watchting again... and GO BEARS! 2-0 and in sole lead of NFC north! :)... if they go to superbowl this year i'm buying scalpers tickets and hauling ass to san diego end of the year :)... hmm i think that's enough of this for now, today i rented the rest of the Preacher series... i think it will be one of hte best 18 dollars i've ever spent... i wish the la county library carried it though, that woulda been perfect!.. plus would save me the drive to irvine hehe... but yeah.. got about 1000 more pages to read/look at... and i might just do it all tonight hahahaha... maybe not though, been dozing all evening randomly, despite the tons of coffee/tea i drank today to stay awake. oh yeah i tried eating a bacon & egg quesadilla from del taco thsi morning, it made want to vomit, i think my tastes are changing a bit lol...

9/13/02.. 11:02 pm... well been a few days i guess... i had stuff to write about earlier, but it's slipped my mind... i think i'll come back to this later on tonight though...

9/9/02... 11:18pm... well first day wiht my very own classes, and i think i got lucky, well at least with mondays, kids are sharp enough to give me paper cuts :-p... but yeah was very very happy with todays group, but then again it is the very beginning of the year and we're doing ez stuff... so a thought for all of you that remember math... in gemoetry, evertything is kidna bassed of prior stuff u learned, u know proofwise...and it all boils down to points & lines & planes... well the most basic foundation for geometry is the postulate, for 2 points there is exaclty one line that contains them... now that's a postulate, menaing it hasnt been proven, but everyone accepts it as true.... wouldnt it be great if someone foudn an exception to that rule... u would never have to learn geometry again, on the basis that it's based on a copmletely wrong ideah... ahh man that's a pretty lame wish, maybe i should be wishing for like 10000000 dollars or so instead... ah well... looks like i'll be kept busy with this job though, i've gotta start making teh worksheets myself pretty soon, not to mention the quizzes... AND they expect me to be able to explain EVERYTHING... hehe tonight i had to do a lot of SAT math stuff, it's really cool that it is coming back to me, got all of em right hehe :)... but seriously, i really really like teaching.... i cant wait til i retire to teach in the far future :)... oh yeah i'd also like to learn japansse and chinese i'm around both languages so much, it'd be nice to have some passing knowledge of each... so i've been listening to Coldplay's new album, dont know if i mentioned this, but i actually bought that as well... but i've been listening to this cd a couple times daily.. i really really dig it... i think part of it is that while i really cant sing very well, i can do the semi-high pitched wailing pretty well, i think that's kinda why i like singing along with radiohead as well... but i'm digging this album a lot... enough so i'd like to find the piano sheet music and learn it... it's been a really long time since i've wanted to play again... so i dunno, but i dunno where i'd find such things... it'd take a really long time for me to play by ear, never had the talent :(...

9/9/02...1:47 am... tonight was much fun, got to see my "mom" after a very long time... highlight of that was hearing how much she liked Apocalypitca, she's a really good celloist, and last time i really hung out wiht her was like for her bday over a year ago & i gave her their cd, and she told me how mcuh she dug it... newayz just got back from this japanease restaraunt called bishamon, it's really cool when the people u're wtih know the owners... hehe... i was feeling super generous and dropped way more than i shoudla, but i htink it's only fair, cuz the two bros i know woulda problalyb paid for everyone without batting an eye, really really good guys... in fact everyone tonight i really liked, not one bad apple in the bunch hehe... but yes i'd rank this as a very good night, probalby as good as last sunday, although for slighlty different reasons :)... crap i had thought of something like 2 hours ago that i really really wanted to write about, hopefully i'll remember tomorrow, newayz off to get a good nights sleep, first day of serious teachign tomorrow, young arcadia minds BEWARE :-p...

9/8/02...7:30 pm... so i recently started reading a stephen king book, dreamcatcher... i forgot how much i like his books, they just get me engrossed, and he really can describe some gruesome/scary/emotional stuff... me gusta mucho... had rehearsal today, i can tell i'm getting better lol.. but i'm kinda regrettign giving up all my weekend time for the next month or so... last night was a very very eventful night... went to diamond palace for a bengali thing, hehe chilled much with the younger ones, & then talked with this one guy, it was pretty funny cuz we both have the same view on stuff regarding this functions, but the younger kids are HILARIOUS... man if i could go back in time with what i know now and live back then, man i'd be sitting pretty lol... one thing though i really really had to keep from just busting out from laughing at one point when i saw a certain someone, just cuz of the ridiculous of it all, but i think i've decided it's not even worth any effort anymore, i just really don't care and really dont even feel any obligation, that i used kinda think that i had b4, about making nice & watching out for her haha... guess i'm finally making up my mind on it lol... but who knows, my memory sucks so bad i'll probalby have no idea what the hell i was writing about a month from now lol... newayz ducked outta the restaurant and booked it down to irvine for an old friend's bday, stopped in had a beer, talked with many people, had to quiet down while the cops came and then took off to go play risk... got to play in HA andy's new room... err my luck i think was outta town or something cuz i did pretty horribly... the highlight of the night though, possibly was getting introduced to Aqua Teen Hunger Force... have u seen this show on cartoon network? it is soo freaking funny... i mean i guess u'll have to like random funny like family guy/futurama/sifl & olly/space ghost coast to coast, that kinda funny... not sitcom funny hehe.. but yes first thing i did when i got to my computer today was to download all of em hehe... oh man they are grrrrrreaat!... it was weird i think i went to bed like at 5 yesterday, but woke up like at 9:30, then proceeded to use andy's new fangled computer to play some battlefield, man i'd really like to play that in real life, except with paintballs, i feel no need to actually kill people, which i suppose is a pretty good thing :)... so as cheap as costco pizza is, it really doesnt taste that good lol.. had some of that for lunch... eh... i think i really dont like a whole buncha oil on it... plus i can barely eat more than 2 slices nowadays, i remember way back in teh day we were all eating like 4-6 ez... weird huh? newayz i htink i may take anap now... got another bday party tonight, gonna go to a karaoke/bar place hee hee... so we'll see if i get enough (alcohoL) induction to make with the singing in front of everyone, but i probably wont.... tomorrow is first day of classes (that i'm teaching) starts for real... heheh but not til 3pm. so i get all day to study for it hehe... oh man one bit of annoyance today, so i came back home from rehearsal and wanted to go online, but noooo it wasn't working... then i had to call stupid customer service, was on hold for over 20 minutes, and all i had to do was unplug the cable modem from the wall for awhile according to them to fix it? how the hell is that supposed to be something u need to account for? man it's lame... newayz it's rest time i think... have a good day all...

9/7/02 12:10am... oh yeah one other thing real quick, well maybe not real quick, or maybe yeah, newayz... seriously it really sux that a lot of people have preconceived ideas of people b4 either actually talkign with them or even meeting them... i think people should be given the benefit of doubt (u know that is such a weird phrase, i dunno if i even used it right) unless they've done somethign personally grievous to you and yours... plus people do change, the person someone was may not be the person they are now... anyways just think on stuff b4 u assume i guess is all i'm saying hehe.

9/7/02 12:01 am... yeah it's saturday!... too bad my friday night was lame, had to go to rehearsal :(... although i made up for it by skipping out on work early lol... put in my two weeks today at nexgenix...craziness that i'm not gonna work there anymore... haha i was second in seniority (err beign with the company wise) in the whole marketing/sales department hehe... but yeah afternoon was good, got some Jumbalaya at the Elephant Bar Grill Cafe restaurant place, i forget the exact name con herr beaumer, was good seeing that guy after over a year, been a really long time, but craziness again, he goes off to alemania and comes back with a gf from here (kinda) hehe... newayz i think i'm gonna veg in the bed now, got a long day of sitting at home tomorrow i think hee hee :)... and much writing to do as well :(... but hopefully i'll sneak away and procrastinate more as always... one thought though before i go... ehh nevermidn actually, it's super cheesy/korny hehe.. newayz here's to saturday, :) g'night all.

9/6/02 1:25 am... one last though, or perhaps a question to you all, anyone know of a good deal on an mp3 player, personal one, not an indash car one... if so lemme know :)

9/6/02... 11:57 pm... well 2 GREAT things happened today... first off i got paid!!! u have no idea how cool it is to get paid in CASH... 2nd great thing, got a raise!!!!! woo hoo :)... not exactly the big bux but it's very worth it hehe... so had a meeting with the bosses tonight regarding my scheduling... well i'll be wokring 6 days a week!, luckily saturdays off... but the best thing is i won't have to work b4 3 on a weekday :)... and not b4 1 on sunday... not only will sleep be perserved, but i wont have to worry about waking up at some morning hour haha... so i guess this was send out the secondaries week, i got over 10 to work on cuz of this week, still gotta schedule an interview at new york... unfortuantley much of thsi cash i think will be lamely used on plane tickets :(... but seriously, this job has put some faith back into me about my luck, i mean due to my laziness i dont think i coulda found something this dope... on a completely different subject... got sad news today, closest thign i've had to a house pet died tdoay :(, old roommate's dog frankie, he was a good dog,... although i kept him outta my room, he was still fun to play with... he really really liked stuffed animal monkeys'... u'd throw one aroudn the room and he'd jump all over the place tryign to grab ahold of it, when he was little he'd grab on so tight, u could lift him up and he'd hang by his jaws... he shall be missed... on another note, bought ANOTHER cd, this is getting weird hehe, got the new coldplay album, i like it, kinda have to be in the mood for super mellow slightly depressing music though lol... but they do well once again :)... comic books rule (sorry another tangent), been reading a lot more of it... tonight been workign on a punisher series, there's this writer named Garth Ennis, he's genius. very dark :). so it looks like i will be giving my 2 weeks (or so) notice tomorrow at nexgenix.. an end of an era..., my brief (well 1/11th of my lifetime) foray into the business world comes to an end now... i will miss some of the people, none of the work, and being online for free all day long lol, well that and free long distance hahahahaaa... the life of an intern was a good one. bought my parents some boba tongiht, well got drinks sans boba for my dad, he dont like the tapioca... but went to the life plaza in arcadia, now does anyone else think it's weird that they're ending their two for one deal on drinks on 9/15? if that's for real that's gonna suck... 3 bux for 2 is much better than 6 bux for 2 lol... zzz, ok that's all for now.. g'night folks...

9/5/02... 11:46 pm... an amendment to an earlier post, apparantly i only offended one person, sorry if i thought differently :-p.

9/4/02... 11:24 pm... oh what a cool day... was productive, then read, then movied, then read, then soccered, then ran, then musicked, then ate, and now i'm beat hehe... yeah for some strange reason i agreed to go running all over uci after soccer with friends.. .it was actually fun, aslhtough i dont think running is ever gonna be my absolute favortie thing in the whole wide world... saw one hour photo, robin williams is CREEPY (imagine the word creepy in green slimy moss like appearance)... also rented a comic book to read hehe... man i'm a sucker for the written word lol... so i'm getting all giddy thinkgin about interviewing again hehe... i guess i'm ognna stay with a student host, perhaps i can choose a coed room? lol ... got a great idea for a short film last ngiht, thought about it on the drive home from irvine... i think i'm gonna write out the script for it perhaps... been slackign on dialogue memorizing :(... hopefuly will have time tomorrow... okies i'm tired for now... adios all...

9/3/02... 4:22 PM... well skipped work today again.. lol i think workign on my apps & puttien away clothes was much more important... today also has been a marathon day of aim-ing... oh man it's been awhile since i did it for hours straight... watched galazy quest while ironing today.. i really like that moive, i think cuz i just like tony shaloub :).... oh yeah u guys feel that earthquake last night? it was awesome... caltech's got a really cool website link to all the earthquakes in california... went recycling today... the half hour i took to recyle like 100 cans/bottles got me a whopping $2.65... i'm RICH.. but then i spent a dollar for savon ice cream, so back to just being middle class :)

9/3/02... well the day has a happy ending... i foudn my glasses... hehe left in my friends car last night... so apprantly i was a LOT drunker than i remember... although i still know when & where to throw up, and which i did apparantly i was told as soon as we got home.. i vomited right out side the car, basically as soon as i got my 2nd foot out th edoor haha... and i'm told it was QUALITY... and hehe i'll tell some of u more stuff, not exactly PG hehe :-p... but yes, it was good to hear that they had as good a time as i did :)... finally started laundry about 10 mintues ago... even went through the troupble of sorting out machine wash warm, and machine wash cold :)... alhtough it's kinda pointless, since i've alrady wasshed everythign dozes of times mixed together lol... on other things, i've got my sister's support on an earlier issue (see disclaimer below), along with another that knows the deal... hee hee... ok now i gotta find a way to stay awake for awhile :) til laundry's done... mayhaps some battlefield or more reading :) good night all :)

9/2/02... 10:59 pm.. ok ok one last thing for now.. JEEBUS it's waaaay too hot nowadays... i mean this is getting ridiculous... someones gotta fix something. :)

9/2/02... 10:54 pm... oh yeah one last thing, in a quest to get this term into better usage (this one's for you andy)... at hero's last night, saw thsi girl from hs, who seems to have, put on, or maybe inserted is a better word, weight on the top half of her body... the consensus on how they looked was "papa likes" hehe.

9/2/02...10:08 PM... you know what really sucks? how the most recnet thing that happens to you puts the most prominent outlook upon one's day/weekend... so first off this.. "WHAT I WRITE HERE, DOES NOT NECESSARILY MEAN MY PERMANANT VIEW OF THINGS, IT'S JUST A FUCKING SNAPSHOT OF WHAT'S IN MY HEAD AT THE TIME."... why do i have to write this u may ask?, well actually it'd be pretty weird if u just asked that aloud right now, if so, u might need to seek help, or do as i've done and accepted the voices in my head as real, and play off any out loud comments i make, to addressing those voices (they're in charge :-p)... newayz back to the lesson at hand... yeah so i gotta write this, cuz i apparantly i've offended two people, one who never said nethign about it, and the other, well let's just say she's keeping in form, hahah i'm tempted to post the conversation, but it's not nearly an interesting enough story, not like the one in skywalkr73's profile (u should check it/him out off of the first page here)... newayz yeah so other than that, this weekend has been pretty good, rehearsal... was LONG... and i really really gotta memorize my shit better, i got respect for directors though, it's crazy how they got in their head a picture of how everythgin should be... hehe myself, i like to just sit back and accept things for as they are haha... i don't think i could ever direct, too much pressure and thinking... writing though. oh man sometimes i have these ideas... actually i had this really good short story/idea waaaay back in hs, i wihs i could find it again, so i won't have start from scratch, but it was a really good idea, at least i thought so... and goddamn my grammar is so shitty nowadays, u have no idea how much sometimes i have to go back thorugh this post and insert particples and pronouns and correct huge spelling errors... i think my brain to finger connections all tweaked now... newayz back to rehearsal, hmm slighly tangential today.... yeah so rehearsal was long, but luckily i dont have to do anythign too dramatic, mostly i'm just standing aroudn on stage, or leanign against a chair hehe... just like real life... lol... it's pretty funny play a visiting grandson from america haha... but yeah that was rehearsal... last night was really good though... went to heroes, to meet up with the amakasu brothers, cuz they were gonna be there for thsi guy brent's bday... newayz 3 of us mostly chilled and beered there hehe... did a couple shots of jager, i used to think i didnt like that stuff, but it wasn't so bad... ended up seeing two guys outside that i hadn't seen since highschool, but hadnt talked to since maybe 8th grade... but it was kool to see, that people do straighten out eventually :)... newayz after the bar i went to their place to just sober up a bit, not really feeling like coming home with alcohol on the breath ahha, newayz but they ended up taking me to some japanese bar in la, where i well i got pretty faded :)... but iw as much fun, i'll tell u the full story in person i suppose hehe, but yeah was very very good night, i got mad respect for james & robert though, basically running their own import/export business & supporting their bro's/sis's/family.... but it was really good talkign wtih em... damnnit i cant write one full sentence with out a typo tonight... but yes this morning i was rewarded with a hangover AND i can't fuckign find my glasses!!! i mean i've moved my bed, checked all my pockets... NOTHIGN... right now i'm rockign my old pair, which work fine, although i'm leanign in a little closer to read the screen hehe... but yeah... eventually tonight i gotta do soem serious room cleaning and laundry, so hopefully i'll find shit there :)... oh yeah so hangovers suck... basically didnt feel good til like 3 in the afternoon, but only threw up once hehe, but i was expecting that... but all i did for most of the day was freaking just lie on either a couch or bed and flip channels... saw a jet li/michelle yeoh movie, man martial art movies are awesome... fuck the ballet, watching a really nicely choreographed fight is much better... on another note, my DAD was watchign she's all that today hahaha... that crazy kid :-p... ok i keep getting subtle hints to do my laundry and clean the room up (by subtle i mean my mom coming by the door and just staring in, looking mom-like :-p) and if i havent said this before, i'll say it again, cowboy bebop rules... music & video wise :)... on another note, (thanks peter for the reminder), check out let forever be video by chemical brothers, it's surreal :), woah.. this one took a while hehe :)

9/1/02... 3:21 AM... hahahah u guys all have school this month lol... ugh i'm lame hehe... newayz had a pretty cool day, picnicked & played... i think i got some good luck today, was sitting around with nothing to do, then BAM comes a call from rishi, "hey come chill toinght" i'm like woo hoo... and oh man i want a view like his backyard does... very very amazing and beautiful... i'm invited to see a sunset one of these days as well :).. newayz i'm tired... i got rehearsal tomorrow, gotta memorize my lines...i htink i've really procrastinated a bit too much on this one haha, but we'll see how the skillz remain... g'nite all...

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