11/22/02...12:53 am... so friday once again... its' weird how fast teh weeks are goign by, but i guess having work will do that to you... pretty much did absolutely nothing til work today... well i did watch some buffy hee hee... i dunno but i'm a sucker for all those shows, smallville, buffy, angel, birds of prey... and luckiily i can watch em anytime i want due to hte magic of hte internet... can you imagine how it was 10 years ago? people having to use VCR's? lol... oh yeah read the paper today.. that was a mistake... there was this long article that really put me ain a downer... all about how a prinicapl and a sherrif really fucked over their son... i dunno... i dont htink parents should do waht they regardless of what the boy was getting into trouble with... i mean i'm all for parents kickign a kid out of the house... but ot make him sleep outside and put dog crap in his backpack? jeebus that's just fucking unreal... and the mom is a freakign PRINCIPAL... ugh... work was so so today... started off well but ended well not badly... but jsut frustratingly... there's this guy i'm helpign in physics... and i swear he cant focus for more than 30 seconds in a row... he'll write down an equation and then just stare at it... i mean all you ahv eto do is plug in numbers... and if the neumber's missing u gotta figure it out... ugh... i swear i've been doing the same 10 problems iwht him for 3 sessions in a row... oh yeah the other night i talked with my boss tina for awhile... freaking amazing life she's had... makes me feel so unimpressive lol... she studeid to be a doctor in china... came here went to USC, but the english conversion was too hard for her to continue studyign medicine, so she sweitched getting a masters in electricla engineering in less than a year.. then worked at jpl for awhiel... AND has a masters in music for teachign piano... jeebus... just think what we coudl do if we applied ourselves... but i liked talkign with her a lot... i think this is the greatest job i've ever had... even though it is getting harder... but i get compensated with hangign out with little kids and getting paid so i'm happy... arm wrestling 8 year olds is awesome hahaha... and at work i get to hear updates on this one helper's love life... freaking insane...i dunno if it's jsut me... but do people really flow through things that fast? lol i think since i met her in august she's had 3 boyfriends... lol and then she's always asking me my opinion about stuff... but i think i'm probalby in the minority opinion of most guys... although i think most of my friends are in that minority os no matters... speakign of friends.... lookign forward to fri night.... good 'ol time with the hs boys hehe... there's this beer called i think mactarnahan's... i think it's like 10.5% alcohol lol.. and delicious lol.. one of those and your'e set for like 2 hours... hehe... newayz i think i'm gonna step up onthe writing... beign at home alone lets yoru mind wander and i might as well tlak to myself via this than just forget about thigns that i deemed important for some reason or another at hte time... oh yes... check out www.googlism.com man it was awesome... also www.addictinggames.com i am currently in love with Zookeeper lol.. well that's all folks... anyone up for soup this saturday let me knwo... i'm gonna be in irvine for lunchign :)... g'night!!!

11/20/02...1:12 AM... thought i'd be going to sleep early today, but well u know... tha tnever happens lhehe... currently at hte mmoment put on the blue album by weezer... i'm probably repeating myself, but this album is so fuckign good.. if the source had reviewed it they would have given it 6 mics... i can honestly say i like every single second of this album... was one of the first cd's i ever got too.. granted it was when my sister adn i split the 10 cd's for a penny deal from bmg hehehe... but defintiely a good album... todaya got an example how muphy's law works from a friend... and it really does work out tha tway ... i mean what you dont want to happen does haha... but lucikly in my friends case he's foudn away to circumvent it maybe... looking forward to next week... get to see soem friedns i havent seen in awhile... especially starting with this friday... old highschool gang back in action :).. so had a great surprise today at work... usually on tuesdays i end wtih a guy who really really doesnt wanna be ther at all, and he rarely puts in effort at all... but tonight... oh man he was on fire... and actually tried... i think he noticed i kinda was disappointed last time, cuz i really have tried to be friends with him... but i think he was in a good moood today... he spent a bit of time telling me (and showing me pictures from)home coming... remember how big a deal it was to get those 2.5X1.5 pics? and hand em out... and deciding who to give them to, cuz no one ever bought enough? hahah but yeah him working on thigns tonight made my day lol... what didn't make my day today was my stupid self-imposed rule of not having soda unless it's spiked... thhere's this new A&W restaurant near the taco bell (which i hadnt realized moved to a new location... it's pretty lame driving up to an empty buildign and getting out of the car only to realize that the store is no longer there)... but yeah so i'm thinking... man i could sure go for a rootbeer float... so i walk all the way up to the door... and then realize why it's called a rootbeer float... :(... sadness... damn i'm getting all drooly just thinkign about one hehe... i think sometime this week i'm gonna have to try makign some milkhshakes... i used to love making my own.. ahvent done that in awhile either... so monday a whole buncha coworkers from my mom's wokr came over to have lunch... they all really like my mom's cooking (as do i) i twaws pretty fun talkign with tem, one the girls, tiffany, i used to work with waaay bakc at my very first job doing data-entry/shipping/receiving/logging/helping at a water quality treatment lab lol... i had the most random odd jobs there... i think i'm gonna go back and visit this week... making me feel all nostalgic... but lunch with all was fun... had some chinse pudding that had 8 differnt thigns in it, supposdly you're supposed to eat it during new years... i dunno i mean i dont mind eating it, but it's not as good as i think it is to people who have grown up with the taste... i mean for me it still takes a bit of time to just get used to red bean stuff... like the first bite is always weird... lol...b ut htis thing ahd oatmeal/rice/red bean/lotus... umm some other stuff.. but also had soem key-lime pie... but what was really good about yesterday was taht tiffany stayed after lunch to just talk with ma, cuz she dding have work that day either, and after we all did the dishes dn cleaned up my mom showed her old wedding pics to her... adn then told the story about how my dad came to america and how the two of them got married... i just kidna sat there on the couch with them for almost an hour while my mom told her story...i was really really entrhralled by it... they freaking met (i already knew all this, but hearing it agian is really cool) and got married in a week haha... and hearing about how my dad came to america... he came with a whole 200 dollars... and one address... i dunno if i'd be albe to do that... but i guess thigns were a lot differnt 30 years ago as well... but i dunno.... to compeletey go off by yoruslef with so little and then end up comign out with sooo much... the older i get the more amazed i am with my parents... and what's sad for us (my age/generation) we are probably gonna be the first generation not to do better than our parents on teh whole... like i used to have huge goals of being super wealthy and stuff... but now i think if i can give my kdis what my parents have given my sister and I, i'd be ecstatic... hell even just half.. okies.... c's been done fore awhile i can i am no longertyping wiht my eyeys oepn....so i think i'll call it a night... oh yeah one other thign though... u think that there can be just one way awkwardness between 2 people... there are times lately htat its' been on my mind... u know i have this notion of things maybe being a lot more complicated than perhaps the counter-party feels... although i dont think things will be simple again (sadness) unless things are talked about... but of course i dunno how or if i'd do that ... argh... oh yeah so i am happy about another thign... sent out an email the otehr night ( i thought it was a quality one lol) and ahve actually been getting resonses... although.. for some reason most poeple like to do reply all... which i sweird... hahaha... newayz it is bed time for real... g'night all... keep smiling... someone else will too :)

11/17/02...ok so i've been slacking on t his i think...not too much interesting since enew orleans... i'm currently typing without lookign at the screen cuz i'm fascinated with watchign the new episodes of aquateen hunger force while i'm gonna rample... today i IRONED!!!... man i had sooo many clothes todo... although most of the time i think i was just watchign whatever was plyain gon the computer instead of ironing... but i think i'm a much better ironer than i was at the beginning of stummer... so tonight i couldnt go to a big birthday bash... was kinda bummed with that... but i guess sometiems i gotta do family stuff first... had this engagement party to go to at a restaurant... the engaged couple was this family friend's son (bengali) and his fiance who's chinese... i thought it was really cool of judy's (the girl) parents and relatives takign everythign in stride... they ahd to go through tis kidna blessign ceremony where basically they get rice and grass thrown on them... but i guess they get compensated with gifts and jewelry hee hee hee... but yeah so basically was just chilling wiht my sis tonight... did see this old friend of ours... i really like this guy kiron... i remember waaay back in the day we used to hang out a lot... i dunno if u remember... but his dad was my dad's roommate in college and his dad was the one that passed away last ... hmm i think in april... and i think that really is the mark of when i realized how it sux not being a carefree kid anymore... but yeah i talked to him for awhile and really had fun... still forced the 'rents to leave aroudn 11:30 though... i need to get home and.. umm ... yeah lol.. i dunno... one thing i have realized though... i think i might be inherent in all bengali guys... to like johnny walker... it's damn tasty... lol although i think part of my infatuation with it, is that it's the only time that i drink soda lol... hmmm lotta things on my mind at the restaurnat tonight.. one being i really dont like indian restaurant food lol.. i think ma's food is waaaay tighter lol... only i really like is naan (it's this super dope tortillas) and i guess the snacks... but the main meal stuff... well i coudl do without i guess... also started wondering... well basically i dunno why... actually i probably do know (from watchign scenery) but it's unfortunately true, no matter what a guy says otherwise, looks are the first thing a guy does notice about a girl... now i'd like to think that i put a lot of emphasis on other things... like humor and intelligence and non-dramatics and independent... but it really is still the looks of someone... face, body... whatever that will alwasy catch the eye first... :(... but luckily i usually form a better opionion after conversing... oh man... had the weirdest just sudden dislikign for someone the other night... and all just cuz of her comments on paying a share of the bill... on the other hand at the asme time that feeling was countered by chris who was the opposite... oh one thing though... how come some people insist on going out, but not have any money to do so?... oh eyah saw part of amelie... wow that movie is cool... i wanna see the whole thing now ddefintily, and preferrable when i'm more awake too... hmmm so i gotta work 9 housr tomorrow then... tutor some more outside of work? jeebus and sunday is supposed to be a day of rest... but... i do like it... although tutoring is kidn agetting hard... i got this gone guy who wansts to break 700 on sat 2 physics... holy crap i've forgotten a lot of stuff... also tomorrow i'm gonna have to help a guy who's had a breakdown from stress from hs... can u freakign imagine? i think this competetive hs stuff is just not good for kids at all... there's enough stress in the future when you got a family and bills... hwen you're under 18 you shoudl have problems like that :(... i think i'm more and more greatful every day for how lucky i, and really most of my friensds have been growing up... i mean for the most part can we really look back and say we had really really bad thigns to deal with? i mean in the bigger picture... cuz everythign seems really bad at the time... on a separate note on that point... a friend of mine once said that she can sympathise/empathise with people when they are having problems, no matter how small they seem, even though she's had probably some of the toughest obstacles and experiences i have ever heard of... but she said that she can empathise, cuz for those other poeple... what's happenign to them... could be the worst thign that has happened to them ever... adn the worst thing that has happened to you would be really hard for any person to deal with... wow i'm tangenting tonight... on other notes... some days i think i'm losing faith in my randomness policy... might have to start some activeness... i kinda have been missing having someone... but i'm all talk haha.. woah... 2:14... i really gotta get to bed.... hmm g'night everyone... i wish you all sweet dreams, and a pleasant week...

11/14/02... 12:36 am... had a sombering thing at work happen... really gave me thoughts about how lucky i've been so far... and how not everyone has it as ez as it seems on the outside...

11/12/02... 1:40 pm... so this interviewing thing is pretty cool... i mean at least i'm going to all these new places regardless of the fact if i'm actually gonna get into this school, but i got a really good feeling i'll get into tulane... oh yeah was in new orleans for the past 2 days.. auick recap cuz i really need to nap some b4 work... lessee... wake up super early, ontario airport, houston, new orleans, ramada inn, naptime, wandering the streets part one, bedtime, thunderbolts and lightening, wakey time, suited up, interview intro, wnader the building, talk with the big man, interview one, student loungin, interview 2, interview 3, tour, back to the hotel, chnage the threads, wander the streets part 2, bowling for columbine, streetcar named desire, wander the streets part 3, hittin the casino, wandering the streets part 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9... HOME. Also i gotta say some stuff regarding, hmm playing cards, boca ranching, korean bars, symphony time...

11/7/02...1:15 pm... adventures at home! so this is somethign u shouldnt try at home... well i guess u could, it was pretty damn cool... so i got it in my head to make some egg sandwiches, u know boil the eggs, use our never used nifty egg slicer... so newayz well i've never ever boiled an egg by myself.. so i really had no idea how to do it.. but i remmebered reading somewhere aobut a 3 minute egg would take 4 minutes to boil in the mountains... so after like 3 min... well maybe 5... i took one out and started peeling and realized it wasn't done.. so i decided microwaving would be the way to go... so i did... and 17 seconds later... KABLOOIE!!! exploding egg time.. it was pretty cool.. except slightly messy... heheh... so that didnt work.. but in the end the sandwiches turned out pretty damn good... my mom's quote on the phone, she had to take her's to go was, "awshombhab bhalo" hehe... newayz then off to the grocery store to run errnads... record time for the trip.. as soon as i walked to the registers one opened up for me yeah!!!... oh yeah i've also decided taht the smell of in n out is easily in the top 5 of the entire world of smells... (there's an in n out right next to stater bros :)... also i think i'm getting old.. cuz i actually like music that gets played at grocery stores... haha... granted it was big yellow taxi by joni mitchell... easily one of the top 10 songs in the whole world heheh... oh yeah went to a liquor store too... 99 cents for a dozen xlarge eggs? man if i was poor... that would be a really big staple in my diet hehe... okies... enough wasting time.. gotta prepare for classes and a night out with a hawaiian :-p....

11/6/02... 11:26 pm... look at this... 3 days in a row in the 11'oclock hour... spooky hahha... no it's not at all.. just like the ring... which i decided wasn't scary at all :(... had my hopes up for it to be... newayz... i forgot to write about this, but kinda makes sense why i ddint think about it... last friday i mosied on over to the admin building and picked up my diploma... kinda an anticlimatic event... 5 years of pseudowork for a sheet of paper... i dunno... i think a lot of people see it as a big deal... but i kinda figure i got soo much more stuff ahead of me, it's kinda small potatos in the big picture... one of the thoughts that went through my head was "aww man now i gotta go buy a freaking nice frame to put it in"... but ahh well i guess it's kool having it... a proof of me accomplishing something... although i get more excited when i accomplish winning a free ticket on scratchers... :-p... so yeah... on other notes, anyone know how to either A) get rid of a cold, or B) speed up the process so the bad part hits now instaed of later? i've got this premonition my trip to new orleans isnt gonna be fun cuz i'll be too busy psyching myself out of feeling sick :(... oh yeah so i was walking around this shopping area looking for a place to eat today and i kidna stopped in front of a place called mr. fish n chips.... i stood there and thought about goign in... but their pictures of their food wasnt too appetizing... mebbe u gotta be weird english to appreciated the filet o something covered in batter then fried (hahha robin)... yeah so i just ended up at take out chinese hahahha... speaking of chinese... I got my first phoen call from china tonight... it blew me away.. hee hee my "sister" was bored at work (guess even pandas can get boring) so she gave me a ring... very very pleasnat surprise, i had the biggest grin when i heard the voice and she started laughing cuz she said i reacted funny ahha... newayz also talked on the phone with another friend tonight... 2 people in one night, i think it's a record for me... well at least for more than 1 min conversations lol... okies... gonna extricate myself from this super slouch i'm currently stuck in... :)

11/6/02... 2:02pm... so i think it takes a certain skill to pee in a cup without peeing all over yourself hehe... although i suppose it's a lot ezier for guys... for some reason the doctor told me to get that done... just for kicks i guess... i cant imagine being a lab tech at a place like that... handling urine for the rest of my life dont sound too appealing... hit up the used bookstore and ended up buying 3 books... i think i'm on a spending spree lately haha... newayz time to eat... :) and then work time...

11/5/02... 11:40pm... ok gonna try again... i guess i like to click on things to make me change my window when i'm writing... BAH... i wish it had an autosave function for every character i tyep.... newayz highlight of today... STORYTIME from dad :).. .he told ma and me all the details of his 3 week murder case he was a juror on... it was pretty cool... a woman fell off a hotel room balcony while having sex lol.... crazy huh? hehe... lesssee what else... oh yeah at work i foudn out that i'm the only teacher/tutor so far that has gotten this one guy to be productive at all... lol... i guess i figured out how to relate hehe... although i'm not sure how much of a good influence i can be lol... today after we finished the geometry stuff i showed him how to take off that child safety metal thingie on lighters.. and then we started heating that metal thingie off and seeing how deep it woudl go into a ruber eraser when it was glowing red hot lol... ahh i love fire lol... newayz i've got a friend who found a dead rat in his wall... EWWW... hahah andy :-p...

11/4/02... 11:18 pm... hmm getting slightly delayed in updating this hehe... that and the fact i never remember what i think about writing at the time haha... so i guess i'll hit up the recent... mainly to harp on a recurring theme, i freaking love my job lol... mondays i tutor a girl for an hour in geometry (i'm one of 3 other places outside of school she gets help from) and i was declared the best tutor by her hehe... so that was always nice :)... ahh yes but man i hear some crazy stuff... kids nowadays are having nervous breakdowns in freaking highschool cuz of all the workload & pressure... that just isnt right... hs was soo much of a good thing for me (well execept maybe lame 10th grade sometimes), but yeah i mean what sux is that people dont even realize that ap's in hs really dont do jack shit when u get to college... ahh wells... but yes... i like my job much... although i know i'm gonna gonna eventually see if i can take another day off... hehe 6 days a week is kinda rough lol... newayz on to other things... ok picture this... The Battle of the HALLOWEEN PARTIES!!!... well not exactly... ended up in irvine thursday night to check out andy & mario's respective parties... andy representing the honors kids and mario representing the engineers... sounds excitign eh? hehee... well i had fun.. .but i gotta give the engineerign party the win for better party lol.. they had a dj AND more people hehe... plus i had special access to the vip room (where i somehow imbibed quantities of alcohol which makes parties even better :-p)... just recycled my pimpnho fro and some vinyl pants hehe... having a fro is great if u just move yoru head slightly the entire thing bounces to music lol... ended up halloween conversing, risking and drinking... till the wee hours of the morning... had the craziest dream that morning, but i cnat remember details now... newayz lesse... hmm i'll come back to this... television awaits :)...

 

 

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