8/29/02... hmm well i see it's been a week lol... not my fault, seemed like everytime i wanted to the stupid site was down... well pimp and ho iv was, in one word, rawesome :). i was soooooooo stoked that my friends did come and were enjoyed & amused (for the most part lol)... the party well wes goddamn fun. single serving friends, was a band that played b4 everyoen came, like at 9:30 it was pretty cool, they played one of my all time favorite songs, per my request, Whree is my mind by the Pixies. of course by tha ttime i was sufficiently faded and started singing/yelling along with the words... and oh man it was great people came in costume it was GREAT... on eo fmy personal favorites was david giving rachel the make up black eye, there's just osmething that signifies Pimp & Ho about a man in a wife beater & a woman with a black eye lol... oh man all ic an say it was worth, contests were crazy ahhaha, as i'm sure there aree pics here and there to show. i'm glad i did nothign too bad, at least taht i cna remember... so much hilariyt that night... and to top it all off, clean up wasnt too bad, TARPS rock, i mean u have noidea how much they helped it was sooo tight... glad we only got one keg, ther was liek 3 gallons loft in the morning (i checked by measuring ahahaha, plus it made the keg easier to carry to return)... havent really totaled all expensies or nethign, but who knows.. plus there's a cop fine :-( aww man... shoulda done things differently, but who knows maybe woudla got shut down anways, it being irvine at all... oh i know i was sufficiently drunk on satruday, i apparantly mistook a guy i had never met before, and proceeded to have thsi conversation and gave him a handshake/hug for coming, hehe he was a good sport for playign along lol... so i guess on to more things... be glad to talk more about with ya una en una hehe... lets' see.. this week has been superrelaxing haha... only worked monday, just CHILLED all other days... read, played, watched, ate, slept, napped :). oh man also got onto a new game, just a demo, but it's a demo a grip of people are playing, Battlefield 1942. it's very cool, historical wake island setting, u can get in all kinds of vehicles, and there's some strategy invovled hehe... also hmm saw the first episode of daria, it's kool seeing how it changed as the eyars progressed, but it was still funny then lol :)... for real though any of u, check out Deltron 3030 album, it's like how all music should try to be, just fresh and original. been watching a lot more dish network tv thsi week, there's just a lot more channels where i find nothing of intersest lol. although did watch some monty python's flying circus this evening... FReadking insane and insanely funny, even my dada was crackign a smile hehe... oh man i did see parts of the mtv music video awards, jimmy fallon's pretty funny, sometimes at least... but damn there's a llot of eyecandy on tv, if not so much talent... triumph was awesome... okies this is enough for now... good bye & hello.
8/22/02... oh man only 2 days left... i dunno what to expect on saturday peoplewise... hpoefully we'll get our 200 hehe... let's see... well pretty much absolutely nothing new or exciting... actually jsut kidding... last night i playeed the greatest multiplayer games on an ebox last night, after a long eveneing of soccer, then dinner at olive garden the night was cappped off with soem beer adn xboxing... oh man these games i think it's fusion somehting or another as the title of the game, but there's like a100 mulitplayer games... man i loved em all hahah, cuz even if u sucked it was fun... today did jack shit... shoulda wen tcostume shoping more but ahh well... just sat around mostly and read, i love the library... oh yeah saw signs too.. it was pretty good. so this week i staretd, well i read the first of the series b4, but george lucas, and chris claremont (he did a lot of xmen stuff) made up a scifi/fantasy story about what happened after the movie willow.. .it's awesome :). i think 'll problaby finsih the 2nd book tonight.. tha tor fall asleep watchign family guy hehe... oh yeah so i really don't understand cars at all, allat the begininning of summer my car's ac decided to only work for like 10 minutes at a time... i kep delayign getting it looked and and i guess that was just waht it needed, cuz it works fine now... it's ridiculou... i like had a driving shirt i'd wear b4 haha and always change after i got ot mey destination... but now it's nice and cool... weird... hmm these last couple posts havent been too quality... i think i need some more rambling issues... oh yeah neone know how to get rid of a cough?
8/20/02... 11:07 pm... so i went to some thrift stores today... man oh man is there a lot of awesome stuff and for ridiculously low low prices... it's amazing :)... although there one key resson why i'll still buy stuff at regular stores... well maybe two, i've still got a materialistic side, but the Main reason is that, well i like to know where stains on my clothes came from, i mean cothes that u buy prestained, just cant trust em lol... also went to ontairio mills for the first time ever... that mall is just ridiculously big. someonne needs to shrink it down. i got so lost over and over. so sad. oh man only a couple days left... pimp and ho iv, just aroudn the corner... i'm getting really antsy, well not really antsy, but kinda, i really hope it goes off well... one last big hurrah... oh yeah i had lunch today at the greatest place ever... they serve not only donuts, but hamburgers AND takeout chinese food... oh man i just wanna set up a tent in there :)... newayz i'm gonna hopefully go to bed early... g'night all
8/18/02... 12:05 am... oh man i've been slacking kinda lol... anyways so friday was a very up and down day.... down i had to go to work, up i left for home early, down i got some good lines cut from my part at rehearsal, good (actually super good) was leaving chinohills at 10:40, getting into la jolla at 12:34 and seeing and playign and talking with incredibly TRUE friends and playing pictionary and driving back at3:30 am adn in bed right b4 6 am. Toady as an incredible day of eating as well, i think i ate 4 meals, although i could barely eat nethign for the last one.. what a good day though, well was going good for most of it, but then i dunno things soured for me a little, and it pisses me off, and i can't figure out if i'm pissed off cuz it really pissed me off or i'm pissed off about feelign pissed off aobut it... i mean i'm not really in pissed off, but the whole thing put me in a really somber mood... i swear i kinda spent the better part of an hour jsut staring at a fire kinda listening to every conversation around me at once but actually just was just in superpensive moan hearing nothing... kinda blew... also i think i dunno what's up but a lot of stuff just kinda irked me, like the fakeness of some people... well i dunno if htey were being fake, but just what htey said, i dunno i think i'm just getting to be a lot bigger fan of just super straightforwardness when dealing with people.... but i don't know how that's gonna fit with my liking to joke around with people, but i don't joke around super important stuff... i dunno.. newayz i'm gonna go dream and maybe some of this will com eto me in teh dream... good night all...
8/15/02... 11:42pm .. woo hoo vacation time from one job! yeah! haha n ot like i've really been workign hard lol... so feeling kind atired nwo but do still wanna write so i'm gonna sit back close my eyes and form non coherent thoughts and allow my fingers to type the misspelled words in my head... tonight well has been weird, got a request for something of a media bedroom aide i suppose u coudl say, hahah, ate a grip at dinner, dunno why, but sure was good, lasnt night, no wait, tuesday it was awesome. i knot know if i've read .... wait no no wrote about thsi yet, but i got to put in the orders for the trophies for pimp and ho four... oh man i hope they turn out well.. but we got them negraved and everythign, store owoner was super dope, also hung out at my old jr high for awhiel ti kill some time, was crazy saw a friend of mine coachign a soccer team so we sat and watched for a while, went to rowland hights, hmm maybe i did talke about htis, im too lazy to scroll down, but yeah i went there and mmm they got everythign there... cna u imagine how good this dinner would be: chinese food at a decent place like at say 7, chill for a bit, 9 o'clock desert crepes, walk aorund for a bit, then hit up life plaza for 2 for 1 boba and then go play pool til everythign closes... man, i need to do this hehe :)... hmmm i guess to end here's some things i've had my mind lately... costume, math, party, beer, music, dry erase boards and markers, lameness at work, soccer, goalie suckitude, green, red z, dancers, death, loss, sadness, sunshine, clouds, air conditioning, frustration, sleep.
6/13/02... 11:15 pm... ahh twas a damn good day... well kinda hehe... teachign went well, for the most part, had a delicious boba drink... got in a car non-accident :-p... hung around, walked around, ate, age of empires 2'd, and went to rowland heights... now i really wish the majority of southern california was like rowland heights area and surrounding chinese/japanese/korean/vietnamese places... i mean EVERYTHING open til 2... restaurants & pool & arcade... and it's got Life Plaza, where i can spend hours just looking at stuff i can't even read lol... it was crazy my friend bittu and i went there to kill time and this lady started talking to us about how we should learn chinese lol, cuz it will help us do business with chinese people, she thought we could read it cuz we were looking at some books... it waws crazy, there's this really good series we like, and we saw the chinese translated version.. the covers are sooo much better, and it was weird the book u actually read from left to right instead of right to left... but yeah it is cool to see George R. R. Martin's got some popularity in other languages as well :)... last night i downloaded some videos of the test bombs in bikini island... the sheer power of these bombs is stupifying... it's hard to think of the devestation they have caused and could potentially cause... man... anyways for any of u boba fans out there, go to life plaza still, only like a month left of their buy one get one free deal on drinks lol... it's soo weird that their promotion runs from 4/15 to 9/02 lol hehe... okies u all know the drill well maybe u dont', i'm off to bebop then sleep... (almost done with hte series! yeah!)
8/13/02... 12:07 am... well well well... let's see so on friday and today i saw two action movies.... one being triple xxx and the other being la femme nikita... suffice it to say one blew and one rocked... triple XZX blew pretty hard... it was kinda like watchign a mountain dew commercial for a really long time... but i guess them younger kids liked it as do the ladies, apparantly vin diesel is hot :-p... le femme nikita on the ohter hand, holy cow that was awesome... it almost seemed like effort was put into the ENTIRE movie, not just making sure a special effect worked... all in all, probalby one of the best action movies i've ever seen, very good acting... only u gotta put up with french lol... get them reading eyes ready hehe... so i had a frozen dinner tonight... well i dunno if u can call it a real frozen dinner, it was like some frozen rice bowl with orange chicken... i think tonight was the first time i really ahd somethign frozen liek that other than like hotpockets or pizza... wasnt too shabby... although my tongue wishes it wasn't so burnt hehe :-p. oh man one last thign before i crash... so today at spotlight (tutoring work), i took me over 15 minutes to teach thsi girl, this, mind u she's 14... if i got a picture that is 24 inches long, and it's surrounded by a 4 inch white border, how long is it from one end of the border to the other... well also keep in mind that i was standing next an ACTUAL picture on the wall while saying all this... i coudlnt believe how frustrated i was getting, and seriously... i dont' think she was even trying or caring... that sucked... luckily the other 2 guys in teh class make up for it... i dunno, guess gotta think of something else... super simple wasn't workign though, so i dunno :(... okies cowboy bebop adn then sleep... good night all...
8/12/02... 9:27 pm... ahh first off a couple things i'd like to announce for any who will know me in the future... first off at my funeral, i don't want any pictures or video taken... i don't like that at all. NO. 2nd off and on a much better note... well i've found a new master plan... get doctorofied, sink further into debt by taking a year or.. 5 off to be a house dad, hopefully my extremely smart/funny/attractive wife won't mind working haha... work again like crazy til i'm 50... set aside enough to put kids through school... go on a year long trip around the world... come back and teach highschool til i'm dribbling old full :). that's all for now.
8/11/02... 8:57 pm... woah. a long weekend. i guess i'll start out with good. bbq'd yesterday. didnt really know the hosts too well, but i had fun. much frisbee fun. also played handball for the first time in like 10 years... umm and of course i was one to hit it over the fence and subsequently made the ball land on a table breaking a bottle, hehe, i got some lucks... on a positive side apparantly dogs like me, cuz their two didnt seem to mind beign by me to get petted & they ran away from a lot of people... spent the evening/night time just sitting aroudn with two friends, a good mix of hilarity, nothingness and actual conversations... alwo got to sit on some phat couches... watched snl for the first time in awhile, i laugh easily i think, and/or am easily amused :)... so saturday was alll much fun... today thouugh, well put me on the somber side once again... i guess in the bengali culture after someone dies, a week or so after the funeral u basically invite all friends over to feed them... so tha twas today, first hour or so all the moms kinda sat around and sang songs... i have no idea unfortunatley if they were dirges or not or what they were about though, partly cuz my bengali is pitiful past regular conversation.. but i gotta sy it wasn't like opera/radio/cd quality singing, but to hear that much emotion coming from voices is really amazing... i kinda just sat and listened and helped with setting up the foods and putting flowers away for that part... then everyone ate outside, somehow i got to be designated water boy... constantly filling up pitches/glasses... didnt mind too much though, kidna kept my mind busy, i really started dwelling on stuff again today, being at her house, really just was a damper, even though all my friends and stuff were there, just beign there adn knowing that she's not gonna be there anymore... well blows... gonna write more later.
8/8/02... 10:04 pm... well got my first feelings of frustration today at work... this one kid just seemed to have the hardest time with this one concept... even though he could do all the parts separately and even got through a similar super ez problem... i think the ability to classify new things into old ideas is probably one of the hardest thigns to do maybe... ahh well... had a great game of soccer yesterday, although i'm still gimpy, damn knee... then a fun night of hanging out, got to play spawn on dream cast, man that game is fun, kinda like super smash brothers & goldeneye... much fun, and then we played this game called powerstone 2 man i rocked at that, same deal type... but was much fun.... tonights dinner got me in a somber mood again though :(... parents and i, well i was just mostly listening, were talking about our family friend recently, how she kinda knew her time was up... just thinking about it gets me still super saddeneed... another disturbing thought is thinkgina bout your parents mortality, my dad made it clear he doesnt wanna be kept alive by machines... just not happy thoughts to have to think about that.... thsi sunday everyones coming together for kinda a farewell get-together for her, so that should be comforting... although i think i like to brood alone mostly... i don't know if it's a good or bad thing to say this, but it's probably been the most tragic thing to happen in my life... unfortunatly i'm sure as we get older there's more and more to deal... but dealing sux... heard a story recently from a friend... she knows this guy who's mom passed away recently, the mailman found out somehow and offered his condolences and said that he had the same thign happen a few years ago... the guy asked the mailman, "does it get easier after time?" and the mail man answered, while getting teary-eyed, "not really"... man getting older blows. on a postive note though, looks like starting in september i wont have to work b4 4 pm if i just keep the tutoring job alone haha... :) a year of perpetual sleeping in might be on the horizon... sister's in venice today and rome tomorrow, lucky lucky :). ok time to distract myself with some more cowboy bebop... if u haven't seen it u should. and don't make ne judgements on it cuz it's anime. the art & music is so nice. especially the music. one last note, i think i might take japanese at mt. sac... although i doubt it'd help much for the movie watching haha... but i think i need to do somethihgn academic over the next year to keep what few working brain cells i have left alive and kicking....
8/6/02... 11:30 pm... last couple days have been i guess life experience days... funeral was pretty hard... thought i had worked through some stuff but probalby the first time i've cried (kinda) in public in a long time... but most people were... not fair... hung out a lot with friends... attended wedding sudnay, very nice, then hung out with coon & family... i like babies... but enough of that weekend... on other notes... apps are going well, although i don' tlike this drain on my bank account from it... oh yeah watched all the smallville episodes last week, man i like tha tshow a lot now, the lex luthor character is great AND they actually cast real teenages to play teenages (what a weird concept) but yes, it's kinda cookie cutter & happy endinsh... but i like it... this week watchign cowboy bebop... man this show is great, especially the music.... work has been awesome, well the tutoring math stuff, the irvien marketing job... i'm getting way over it, but i does work out well when i go visit irvine, basically working a few hours ther epayes for the gas & night's festivities hehe... but mna i really really really like the math teachign job :)... oh yeah i was told to make whoopie by my mom... hmm actually now that i think about it was to "bake cookies" :-p... so i did, busted ouat about 100 chocolate chip & skor toffee cookies... damn delicious... well at least my tongue likes em lol.. .i think i ate about 10, jsut ot make sure it was all right haha... okies i'm gonna fall asleep soon... good night all, sweet dreams, cool room, warm sheets, no bed bugs, and a sunny morning to all :)
8/2/02... 11:54 pm... well i think i'm just different than most... kinda sorted out my own head today, so i went and visited the family... many people there, it's nice to see that community support, didnt know what to say to my friend though, ever have the kind of friend that u never really talked about deep important stuff, i mean you're still close, but it just wasn't something u did, unfortunately i think it rubs off from not really openign up to our parents... my bengali friends are more connected to my parents than my non-bengali friends, eh, none of that just made sense, newayz he seemed be doing allright, i feel bad about not going yesterday though, ahh well, funeral tomorrow morning, i kinda wanna say something, but i think only my parents and a few others would know what the hell i was trying to say...
8/2/02... 12:20 am... it's amazing how u can still put up a front when needed... i'm also becoming a fan of escapism this week...
8/1/02... 2:50 am... well the other night luckily wasn't the worst night ever...
which was good... unfortunately i think tonight just turned out to be... about
30 minutes ago i was driving back from a really really good end to the day and
was stoked about rambling about the last couple days, i knwo i've been slackign
on this profileing..., but then got a message on my phone... thought it was
my dad wondering if iwas coming home tonight... ended up it was my dad, but
he was leaving a message to let me know they'd be at the hospital... my "second
mom/aunt" couldnt fight anymore, so now she's gone... damn thought i could
write stuff out... but can't seem to function right at the moment... fuck.
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